money coaching I - Geld ist das, was wir damit verbinden.

Was ist Geld?
Geld ist: Alles und nichts.
Genauer gesagt: Geld ist die Vorstellungen die wir davon haben.

Systemaufstellungen. (in german.)

Systemaufstellungen. und Geld. Und so.

does money have a soul?

I think this will become a blog about money. I don't know though. But it seems like it.
Lately I was thinking if money has a soul. I think so, actually. I think it was cut off from its soul for a long time. I think it does have a soul, and a consciousness. But i think, just like many other good things, it was used and exploited. That's my theory. I think, money itself is kinda neutral, but not really, I think it can find its way to the good. I think it was cut off its purpose.

This semester, I will start doing research for my cultural- and social- anthropology bachelor's thesis about economics in art. For me art is soul. And also money is art. It can be. But very often, its not. I haven't understood, yet, what it is, that makes art valuable. I really haven't. Because it CAN be many different things, but then at the same time they can all not be relevant as well. It's maybe a bit like Schrödinger's art value.
I realized recently that I shouldn't search for money in my opponent anymore, instead I realized, money is a part of myself. Always has been. It was a bit weird at first, I confess. But it made a lot of sense, once I realized the effect in feelings and behaviors that resulted through it. I think it's a key thought. At least for me. I always tried to give something from my inside and tried to get money from somebody else, as I think, is normal in this world. I think, that's how it works.
From now on, I don't give my inside, in form of art, of pictures, of anything I make, anymore, in search for money in return. I am looking for my inner money, and I am creating it, and give it in form of art, a picture, or something I make, and I will just get these papers in return that people pay with.
It's worth a try, I think.
I will let you know how it turns out, but so far, it just feels good.

Why I believe self discovery is saving the world.

First of all, fucking hell, I am not only a piratess, I am a pirate princess now. I newly discovered I have royal Italian ancestors, getting the documents sent soon. But that's not what I want to talk about here.

What I actually want to talk about, is self discovery. I committed to it and there is nothing anymore that can excite me more. It's not about a superficial selfie-culture though, it's not about narcissism, on the contrary, it's about what was written above the oracle of delphi: gnothi seauton - know thyself.

I am asking myself all my life: Who am I? More than I have ever tried to become some profession or learn certain skilles, I wanted to know what makes me me, and what differs me from other people. I never knew. I really never understood. A big part of that problem was my heritage, I did not know half of my ancestory, and that fact left a huge black hole in me that i was never able to fill with anything I did. I tried a lot. Some things worked less, some things more. But the effect of it was above all things: I became curious and wanted to discover EVERYTHING. Literally every single thing in the whole world. Fuck and that was a bit too much. Discovery overkill. It was just not possible. In every litte thing i tried to find something, find me, become someone, become me, maybe. Not, not possible, I'm telling you.

So, at a certain point I realized that I wouldn't have a chance and did the opposite, i got into all kinds of philosophies that are telling you to look inwards and learned a lot of skills that helped me do just that, in a very, believe me, very, intense way. It was painful. It was hard. But, damn it was good. Fuck I cried a lot. A lot lot. And every time I had cried I felt like I've had a shower - for my soul. I cried it all out. All the shittyness that I carried on my inside, where I never looked, where I never thought there could be anything to discover, what could be there, all I know from that place on my inside was a huge black hole, that wanted to be filled.

But - Slowly - Slowly - It - Got - Smaller - Step - By - Step - The - More - I - Looked - Inside. Hell Yeah. You have no Idea how much work that was and how fucking good it feels to have that done - and still continuing doing it. Crazy shit I love crying so much now! It feels sooo good and relieving. And it's just a part of my soul cleansing rituals that i do just for myself and because i like it. And believe it or not - my surrounding changed. It's still the same world that I want to discover (yeah, still, I haven't changed, remember, I am still the same me, with all my sarcasm and healthy badassness) but everything became easy. I mean, haha, I still have no money and all that, but emotionally I feel - like the pirate princess that I am now! But most of all, and that's what I want to actually say, It gave me a sense of purpose and meaning. I stopped following the rules of society that are in my oppinion in many cases pretty meaningless and started to find my own meaning, which I was and still am desperately longing for. What is life without a purpose, really? What is life without discovery? What is life without magic? I think, and I really believe that in the meantime, that the knowledge of the self is essential for a sense of purpose and a positive impact on one's surrounding.

So. That's what - apparently - I live for, I learned in the last few years. Who knew! :D Haha. Not me. The girl wo went out to see the world and came back as the pirate princess. <3
Lots of bussis my dears and tell me some stuff sometimes

Cryptos und so

Irgendwas will ich posten.
Aber was?
Ah ja genau. Ich weiß.
Piratensachen. Welt verbessern. Bitcoins und so. Ich hab heute wieder was eingezahlt. Der Wert hat sich mit dem heutigen Tag seit ich vor einem Jahr begonnen hab tatsächlich verzehnfacht. Damals war der Bitcoin bei so ca. 400$, heute ist er bei 4000$. Das find ich schon krass. Ist natürlich schon gangster, das ganze Bitcoin-Ding. Aber ich ja auch. Passt also. Nein, im Ernst diese Bitcoin-Sache ist geil. Weil es kein schuldbasiertes Geldsystem ist. Weil dieses Ding mit den Schulden und so ist im Geldwesen halt schon ein bisschen scheiße. Und die Inflation. Cryptos sind deflationär. Und dezentral. Crowd und so. Bottom up statt top down und so. Da steckt schon einiges drin was man gut finden kann. Deshalb hab ich heute wieder was eingezahlt. Fühlt sich geil an. Hihi. Piratensachen eben.
Machts gut und bis bald!
Bussis, ich
die Piratin

interview with the.piratess

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MAKE BIG TALK (www.makebigtalk.com) and Gregory Kenedy-Salemy (www.weirdworld.io) asked me for an interview!
Super duper happy about this opportunity.
check it out:
https://soundcloud.com/weird-world-179150517/big-talk-tuesdays-featuring-anna-schmitzberger-episode-1

Kinder, Kinder.

Uff, Kinder ich sags euch. 
Was sagst du uns denn, du Piratin?
Ich sags euch, das ist alles gar nicht so einfach. Dieses Leben und so. Was man da alles machen will und können muss und sich einbildet dass man machen muss und können will... Nicht so leicht das ganze. 
Ich hab gestern meine ganzen alten Arbeiten als Fotografin, und als Mensch, und als kreative und neugierige Person durchgeschaut und mir dabei gedacht: Ich war schon cool. Aber irgendwie ist alles immer so im Nichts verpufft kommt mir vor. Die Frage ist halt auch: Wen intressierts wenn man irgendwie so ein bisschen kreativ ist und vor sich hin kreativiert? Interessierts irgendwen? Irgendeine Sau? Mich selbst nichtmal.
Zum Beispiel, und deswegen poste ich dieses Foto, bin ich draufgekommen ich hab ja mal ein Buch rausgegeben mit so rechteckigen analogen Fotos drin. Square-Time hieß das, man kommte das auf Amazon kaufen. Warte, ist das da immer noch? Ich muss mal schauen.
haha, ja, ist noch da! https://www.amazon.de/square-time-Anna-Schmitzberger/dp/3848204681/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1501581879&sr=8-1&keywords=square-time+anna+schmitzberger
Da, sehts euch an. Wenn es euch denn interessiert! Man weiß es ja nie. Ich glaub aber auch, dass ich immer gedacht hab, es interessiert ja sowieso keinen was ich mache, und deswegen alles wieder so schnell wie möglich hinter mich gebracht hab und mit dem Nächsten weitergemacht habe. Ich will das nicht mehr. Ich bin zwar immer neugierig auf Neues, aber ich werd jetzt auch mal wieder die alten Sachen rausholen und aufarbeiten und pimpen und tunen und auf den neuesten Stand bringen und irgendwas geiles damit machen. Was, weiß ich noch nicht. Was kann man machen aus quadratischen analogen Bildern die irgendwie schon schön sind? Wenn ihr Ideen habt, immer her damit. Würdet ihr mir echt helfen damit.
So!
Das wars erstmal. Für jetzt.
Bis bald!
Bussis, die Piratin
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